DESIRE



I do not desire

To have no desires

To be a still pond without a ripple

I do not desire this

For even as I love my swimming deep

Even as I treasure the silent waters

And pray for gills

That I may inhale the liquid peace

Yet there are times

When I rise to the surface

Gasping for the air of life

Wanting only to splash and play

In the sunlit waters

To lasso the skimming gull with my heart strings

To soar too high and fall too hard

To care too much

There is a price paid for wanting

I know, I know

But God is in the storm as well as the still

And I am no monk

Nor care to be

Let me then live and pay the price

With my open and vulnerable heart

Aching already with what is to come

I say

Let it come

Let it come

Let desire course through my veins

Let my heart cry out with the gull

As we glide over the ocean waves

Lifting higher and higher:

Look, God, look here

Watch me play

Share my joy as I fly

Kiss away my tears when I fall

Behold the sky water me God beauty of my life

I am alive!



Carrie Hart